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Hello everybody, hope you are all having day.
I am penning this put up predominantly for reflective and integrative functions. I’ve by no means actually sat down and consciously organised my ideas about my microdosing expertise into phrases, so I do not count on this to be of worth to anybody however myself. That being mentioned, I have been on this sub for some time now with out contributing something so I believed I might share this within the hope that it may be of use to somebody.
My journey with microdosing started when my smug, pseudo-spiritual-ass 17 y/o mind thought that it could be epic to “broaden my consciousness” and “remodel myself into a greater particular person” by experimenting with low doses of acid. I took 20-25 mics thrice per week, for a few months. Lengthy story quick, I had no concept what I used to be doing. My doses have been far too excessive, I had no actual familiarity with my psyche and didn’t have interaction in any form of integrative practices. I believed that I might simply sit again and let the chemical work its magic with none effort on my finish.
To be trustworthy, I’ve by no means been the identical since. Over the course of my microdosing routine, I developed fairly extreme nervousness (initially associated to my lack of private development, quickly increasing to embody social conditions as properly) which has made the final 1 and a half years very difficult.
One of the best ways I can describe my expertise is as being “injected” with an overwhelming dose of self-awareness. That is one thing I used to be completely unprepared for, and thus as a substitute of truly serving to me transfer ahead and face my anxieties and shortcomings, it made me without delay intolerably conscious of them, but completely unequipped to take care of them.
So yeah I feel that is a lot of the methods by which I tousled.
To anybody who’s pondering of microdosing psychedelics, I’d advise the next:
– It’s best to actually know your self earlier than you embark on a microdosing routine. And by that I imply *actually* have as complete as attainable an understanding of what makes you tick at a unconscious degree. Not too long ago I’ve appeared on the concept of sub-personalities and the enneagram as a method of exploring my psyche, however no matter works for you is cool. Realizing what I find out about myself now, I can actually see how microdosing, if correctly directed and built-in, might have helped me to fight my failures with out the unbearable strategy of being so agonizingly conscious of them that it’s a must to alternative however to behave.
– Throughout your dose interval, it’s a must to put within the work. Do not do what I did and be passive while anticipating the drug to do all of the be just right for you. A well-known Jung quote captures this concept properly: “watch out for unearned knowledge”. It’s important to *earn* your knowledge, or else you can’t grasp it. Useful methods to do that: writing diaries and reflecting deeply upon every dose day, making schedules to implement no matter it’s you prefer to microdosing that can assist you obtain, meditation and yoga and so on. Issues that seem in lots of posts on this sub and should not be missed.
– Have a good suggestion of the way you wish to change over the course of your microdosing routine. It’s a good suggestion to put in writing down a set of clear, well-developed, achievable objectives earlier than microdosing. Trying again at my microdosing “goals” (should you can name them that), I did not have something that even approached a concrete set of implementable objectives. Wishy-washy stuff like “turn into a nicer particular person”, “partake in additional actions that convey you contentedness” or (my private favorite) “exist extra within the current” brings extra hurt than good. TGROW fashions, carefully-enunciated packages of change and issues like this are a great way to turn into the particular person to understand your goals.
Expertise-reflection-integration is a primary summation of what you need to be contemplating while microdosing. I disregarded the final two, and have been coping with the implications ever since. Psychedelics are unbelievable, highly effective substances however that doesn’t make them objectively useful or good by any stretch of the creativeness. The best way by which you manifest the chaos of your experiences into on a regular basis order is will decide the worth of your microdosing apply.
Hope you loved studying this and that it’s quantities to one thing greater than random concepts spewed onto a display screen. That is most likely fairly primary stuff to most of you however I do not need individuals to should needlessly endure in the way in which I did.
Like to everybody who’s strolling the trail of self-improvement:)